GUFN

GUFN.

(grounded until further notice)

Yep.

Guess what.... Becca's grounded!

haha I'm grounded for skipping Chemistry.

Two days in a row.

sucks..

I was supposed to go to a party tonight..

Not happening.

Driving my car for 2 weeks...

SIKE

Party next weekend?

You wish!

I have nothing to look forward too..

except the day the "further notice" part springs into action.

So until then I shall be bumming rides to and from Swim practice...

Riding the bus to school which means getting ready earlier...
no going to the store on my own....

Dang... lets not skip class anymore.

It was fun though...

oh well.

I have tons of time to work on Cameron's Christmas present now.

It's amazing!

Yeah and I got a Job at Ruby Tuesday today as a hostess =]

Good Job Becca!

I'm really excited

I love that place!

and they don't have food sitting in front of you to eat.

ugh thank goodness I can also wear my hair down!

and actually look decent!

plus ... TIPS

im excited!

no more chicken =]

20 days till cameron comes... And counting down...

well I think i might go read... Woah holy crap

yes.

Me Reading!

hah

this will hurt later....

open your eyes

It's Kind of funny how an insult from one of your friends being a jerk can completely open your eyes to something obvious. So today at lunch I was told that I'm a dumbass because I get D's and at first I was really mad, and It kind of hurt my feelings, but then I thought about it alot and It made me realize... I don't have to get D's. That's just something that I accepted... my train of thought was ... "hey at least im passing" but I mean Why not try to get amazing grades? why do I have to settle for lowest of the low without failing? I'm better than that... I'm just lazy.. Becca You need to wake up. I am a Junior this year and I have no idea what my average is but guaranteed its not as good as it could be. I've decided now is the perfect time to start caring. I need to study, I need to pay attention, Stop skipping class to go to the art room. I need to bring my average up to at least a B an A would be amazing. I know that the colleges im looking at require at least a B average,... so I need to make that happen. and now is the perfect time. It's the start of a new six weeks in the middle of the first semester. I'm determined... I just hope it stays as a determination of mine.... hm maybe I should get insulted more often.... no... thats ok...

Meine Freunde

So this year I have really discovered who my true friends are. I'm not entirely sure I've written about this.. I might have and if so.. oh well never hurts to write it again. Anyways so I've come to realize how amazing my friends are. We always have such great times, and we are always there for eachother. It's so great to have these people in my life. I honestly don't think I could ever leave them. It will really suck next year when we graduate and all we will have left are memories... luckily we have a photographer, and a movie producer/editor in our group =]. I will never forget all the great times we have together. It seems like anything we do, wheather it's something huge and amazing.. or just something as simple as chilling in one of our basements with a couple

guitars.. we have the most amazing times ever. I couldn't ask for such an amazing mix of friends too. No two friends of mine are alike.. infact we are all very different, we have some similarities but for the most part... we are all different. It's great! that's what makes our friendships so strong... our differences... and how they really don't matter =]. Ugh I could go on forever about my friends but I would probably just be repeating myself. This entry doesn't really have any structure.. its just coming from the top of my head... but hey its for me anyways. =]

Thanksgiving

Ah another Thanksgiving. Time spent with family gorging ourselves. but hey we're together right? Yeah well the complaining of the extra pounds won't come until later.
This year has been a bit different.
It really doesn't feel like a holiday at all. Other than the fact that everything is closed and the Macy's Thanksgiving day parade was on this morning. It's just seemed like a boring Un-eventful day. Yeah we had lots of food... but I wasn't even really hungry so I had a little not much... and due to the fact that I'm getting thinner because of swimming, my family came to the conclusion that I must be on some freak "no food" diet and that's how I'm getting thinner... ever heard of exercise? and NOT gorging yourself? I took a nice nap though, and finally finished the book "Glass" Crank and Glass totally make me never want to even look at meth or coke. but anyways. I've been thinking alot about cameron.
I want to be with him.
I want to feel his arms around me.
eh mushy right?
yeah well I can't help that.
I want his lips.
his perfectly shaped lips.
how great it will be 28 days from now...
yes im counting down.. sue me.
Ray is being anal about it, I just think its the lack of Power he's had lately. he'll get over it.
I'm not about to let him ruin my fun.
Happy Thanksgiving... is it Christmas yet?

This feeling has to be real

I've never felt like this before.

Sure I've been happy, but never like this.

This takes dedication, and extreme loyalty and trust.

Something we both have.

That's rare.

I never ever thought I would do this,

but im so glad I did.

I can't see myself with anyone else.

Sure call this cliche, doubt it all you want,

And you may be right, you may not.

all I know is I've never felt like this before about anyone.

There have been wayy too many coinsidences, for this to be fake.

our story is like one of make believe that people only tell to make you feel good.

It's not common.

These feelings, so strong and confident.

I can't help but to believe this could actually last a long time.

I don't want to say anything I regret, therefore I'm not.

I believe I love him.

I know I love him.

Wow, and all this time I was looking somewhere I dont even love to be.

who knew Love could be somewhere as uncommon as

"Idaho"