What's that supposed to mean?

So I got into The College of Idaho or "C of I" as they call it.

I'm extremely excited! It's exactly what I want.

It's made me think alot about how things will be changing in the next few months.

Also, alot of Drama has gone on that has made me think of a few things as well....

I don't know what I've decided... but I know what I've been thinking.

I'm thinking I don't know what I'm doing, and I don't know what I should be doing... I'm wondering if any of this is worth it? If It's as real as I think it is?

If I should just leave it alone or dig for deeper thoughts..... I'm not even worried about her, or her lies.... this is all about me, and what I'm thinking....

things are really great!

but for some reason when I say that... it doesnt feel as real as it has before... almost like its a lie?

I don't know what to do....

weird how it can never be how you want it..

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Feelings the songs portray

It's pretty cool How when listening to a song, Listening to the lyrics, the rhythm, the voice/instruments it sets a mood.

That mood depends on the kind of music or the words that are being said, The rhythm of the song, and the tempo at which the rhythm goes.

I love finding songs that relate to my life in more ways than one.

Songs that I can relate to a person or event that I will never forget, and then assigning a song to it will ensure I never forget it.

They are my "musical memories."

What would happen if all the music all the songs we listen to on a daily baisis just dissapeared. No evidence of them ever existing...

What would the world be like?

would the memories stay as long?

The world would be empty, or blank.

Music brings emotion of all kinds.

Without it ... what would we do?

Just a thought.

Where did the Fun games go?

Oh my god.. Tomorrow I will be 18.

That is Rediculous!

This time next year I will be living on my own, Maybe even thousands of miles away!

Time flies so fast... I wish I could go back and do some things I used to do.. like as a kid.

I would go back to the summertimes I spent every day and night at Jennifers house and we would always be outside either playing the the hose, Drawing with chalk (and getting Covered in it) or Riding bikes, roller bladeing.. Jumping on the trampoline with the hose (and soap) Swimming at the lake just tons of stuff! we were never bored then, we always had some game to play or something new to do! we were completely innocent and oblivious to anything! Now it's like We really don't have that much time to think up new games or find things to do... we are always busy working... or getting ready for something.. Or we just are too lazy to do anything at all.. It's kind of sad. I decided I'm going to make the most out of my next few months I don't care if im 18... I'm going to enjoy it Just like I would if I were 14 Life's to short to stop because of a number.

Psht not excuse me while i watch LION KING!