This place is in no way "Home".

I really cannot wait to leave this place... at all!

ugh! I don't understand why my parents decided to move back to this place!

The only good thing about here are my friends... If I didn't have them... you better believe I would not be here right now. I would be in Utah where I belong, and I would be able to see Cameron on weekends, I would be partying with Rick, and my cousins and my friends out there, and I would always have something to do!

Ugh! And best of all I wouldn't live with RAY!

god he is such an asshole!

seriously there are some days where I'm like "eh it will be alright to stay one more year" and then others where I wish tomorrow was graduation!

God I don't understand its just ridiculous!

He bitches to me about everything!

ugh

I'm still seriously thinking about moving to Utah this summer, like just staying out there... we will see though... I don't know I want to, but then I also will miss my friends terribly, and I wouldn't graduate with them... and I kind of want to graduate with the people I've known since I started school in this god awful place!

but then, I also want to leave here and be free, and see Cameron, and enjoy myself so much more, and not have to worry about stupid things! like "is my room clean enough for ray? Will ray get mad if i take the car here? don't let ray know I stopped somewhere else when I told him i was just going to pick up Caroline!!" Ughhh!

I cannot wait until I go to Utah this summer it will be the best vacation ever!

and this winter I plan on going to Idaho and staying all of break!

and then in the spring Cameron will come here for a few months and get his OWN apartment and by then I'll be 18 and I can legally move out for good, and we will stay in Loserburg until I graduate and then move out west to Idaho together and be happy and never have to come back ever <3>

Life will be so much better in 2009