The Body.. MY body the way I see it.

Why is it that I have this mental block.
If I don't work out, or do anything physical and eat like crap then.. when I look at myself all I see is this huge... Untoned... Jiggly thing!

and it's like whenever I get where I want to be I mess up! and I just keep messing up!

Ugh its so depressing like it really bothers me.

Nobody else knows how I see myself though, and nobody knows how I feel.

They think I'm stupid for looking at myself like I'm fat...

But I mean that is SERIOUSLY how I see myself.... It's like all I can think about.

I know I have a problem... but I just can't fix it!

Ugh I need Meds.

That, or a personal trainer!

HELP!