the unread blog.

You know, I've been telling myself alot lately that I need to stop, I can do so much better... I deserve better... But whenever I talk to him... I don't want better... I want him.
It sucks so bad!!!

I just want to feel sure that he loves me. He doesn't talk about it, he doesn't even want to say the word and he kind of shows it in his own way... I don't know. It's so confusing.

I wan't to explain it to him so badly but I know he doesn't want to talk about it.

Why can't we talk about it one good time... just so he can understand where I'm coming from.

Where is the boy I fell in love with, and how is this boy keeping me here?
I guess I just keep hoping the first boy will come back.

Will he ever realize that I just want love, that's it. That is all I'm interested in.

I know he hates the word, he hates talking about it, he hates feeling obligated... but I don't think he understands that it does not have to be an obligation. I don't want him to tell me he loves me every second of everyday. He doesn't even have to tell me every day, or every week even... I just want to hear it every once and a while... just so I know he does still love me. I mean, I'm sorry if that seems like alot to ask of you... but ... it's really all I want....

I don't know maybe one day I will work up the courage to talk to you about it...

I know that it's so hard sometimes for me to stop myself from telling you I love you.

I do love you.

I would do anything for you.. can't you tell... I think you can, which is why you don't see where I'm coming from... as far as you know I am absoloutely positive you love me...

except I'm not...

Please just tell me once? Don't completely delete the word forever... It's nice to hear every once and a while...

You will never read this... =(